Monday, March 26, 2007

Surprise Package

Following up on my earlier post re: The Joke Is On Me.....I'm ready to spill the beans, even though I'm not yet having a knee-slapping good time. Not just yet. I am, at least, starting to catch my breath finally, and I've been afraid to write this down, because writing it down and/or telling people makes it real. But, goes. It was confirmed today.

i am preggers.

Knocked up. Bun in the Oven. The Rabbit Died. Yes, all of it. And there is nobody more shocked than me and my husband. We thought we were way past all that. The odds against it at my age are really, really high. Maybe we should have purchased a lottery ticket that night instead. :)

At any rate, now I have to rethink my entire life and halt all the momentum that was headed in the other direction. I have real estate issues, insurance issues, lifestyle issues and pure shock to deal with. And my poor husband just turned 50. He is more stunned than I am, if that's possible.

But today, I saw and heard the tiniest little heartbeat just thumping away. Yes, God does have a brilliant sense of humor, and I believe He has a plan. I sure hope so, because I don't. At least not yet.

I never wanted to be a mom, but it looks like I will be in November. Go figure. Time to think about life in a whole new way. And maybe that's the biggest gift of all.


Miss Forthright said...

Wow M what amazing news! Big congratulations!

SandDancer said...

I suspected as much from your earlier post and our previous 'discussion' on the subject. I can understand how big a shock it must be for you and your husband but congratulations all the same!

It is obviously going to be a big shake up but from what you've said, it sounds like you are pretty finanically secure so at least that is one thing you don't have to worry about too much. And obviously, you are 'proper grown-ups' with strong values etc so should be good parents.

I hope there will be lots of posts on possible baby names!

M said...

Thanks ladies.

Still dazed on this end. Thankfully, we have another 7.5 months to get used to the idea. We're moving from disbelief, shock and fear towards excitement. We both believe this was just totally meant to be, as the odds are so high against it. So we are starting to laugh about it a bit.

As posted earlier, we were in the middle of downsizing, moving back into the city, doing a townhome and the urban living scene, and now we feel we should throw the brakes on all that, which means I have to unwind real estate agreements, lose some deposit money and get a new game plan for living. I don't currently live in the ideal house for a baby, but it's far better than the townhouse we were planning to move into, and I don't really want to take on the stress of a move in this condition.

I do feel that if this was going to happen, this might actually be the right time. And the wrong time. It's the right time because I've reached a point where I no longer have to work, and I never wanted to be in a position where I had to leave a baby at daycare. I know lots of people do it, but I shuddered at the notion.

And it's the wrong time because of our age! LOL On the one hand, we are supposed to make "better" parents. On the other hand, my poor husband will be almost 70 by the time this tyke goes to college. That seems daunting.

We've been joking that maybe we're not going to be parents; we're going to be grandparents. LOL

Baby names list is in progress. Part of the problem at this age is that everyone we know has taken up all the good names with their kids and/or every name we mention reminds us of someone we don't like. So that may be a while. :)

Miss Forthright said...

Well, I was an 'accident' and even though it was a terrible time (my mum was 20 and living at home still) it worked out fine. Maybe there is no 'right' time for these things, maybe like you say, some things are meant to be and you have to roll with it. I'm so excited for you guys.

M said...

Thanks so much.

We've been married for 13 years next month, and this has never happened before.

I blame Daniel Craig.

We've nicknamed the little tyke '001'. :)

northern monkey said...

Not been around online much this week so just catching up on your news - wow congratulations and what a shock but such a nice one!

M said...

Thanks Northern Monkey.

We're hoping the shock wears off by the time the little tyke gets here. Good thing we have until November to get used to the idea.