I just returned from my OBGYN appointment and got the news that no pregnant woman wants to hear: there's been a miscarriage, or a 'spontaneous abortion', as the doctor put it.
I'm very sad today but mostly in a daze after the roller coaster ride of the shock of being pregnant, the acceptance of that and an enormous pending lifestyle change, and now the word that it's suddenly all off. Game over.
I'm in too much of a tailspin to talk much about it right now. Mosty I feel like I've been put through the emotional ringer. It will take me a while to fully process this and understand what it all means, how it will impact my life in the long run and what meaning I can take away from it. I believe every experience offers us a nugget of something to take forward, but it might take me a while to figure out what this one brings to bear. It's been a short, bumpy road full of curves, and I'm not sure where it's headed now.