Wednesday, April 11, 2007

The Road Curves Yet Again

I just returned from my OBGYN appointment and got the news that no pregnant woman wants to hear: there's been a miscarriage, or a 'spontaneous abortion', as the doctor put it.

I'm very sad today but mostly in a daze after the roller coaster ride of the shock of being pregnant, the acceptance of that and an enormous pending lifestyle change, and now the word that it's suddenly all off. Game over.

I'm in too much of a tailspin to talk much about it right now. Mosty I feel like I've been put through the emotional ringer. It will take me a while to fully process this and understand what it all means, how it will impact my life in the long run and what meaning I can take away from it. I believe every experience offers us a nugget of something to take forward, but it might take me a while to figure out what this one brings to bear. It's been a short, bumpy road full of curves, and I'm not sure where it's headed now.

6 comments:

Miss Forthright said...

Oh M :o(

I'm not sure what to say but have a huge virtual hug from me.

Take care of yourself my lovely. xxx

SandDancer said...

Oh love, no that's terrible news. Just when you were getting your head around it.

So so sorry. Take care and we are 'here' in cyberspace for you if you need us.

M said...

Thanks very much, ladies.

In the past 6 weeks, we've jumped in and out of so many hoops -- real estate transactions, insurance updates, lifestyle changes, etc. -- a dance that appears all for naught now.

We're weary, perplexed and confused.

Miss Forthright said...

Just try and take a few days to look after yourself until your head is more straight. Watch Casino Royale a few times maybe- try and keep busy, but not tooo busy.

I really am so sorry sweetie. xxx

northern monkey said...

oh M I'm so sorry...words fail me...take care of yourself and your man *hugs*

M said...

Thank all of you for your kind words and hugs. They are much appreciated.

One thing that does immediately stand out for me in all this is what a wonderful husband I have. He has been so sensitive, gentle and supportive. He is a true gem, and I am very lucky to have him in my life.