Sunday, February 8, 2009

25 Things About Me

1. I'm 5'10 and have been this tall since I was 15. Needless to say, I wasn't asked to dance much (or ever) in high school. I don't think you ever forget those things.

2. I don't necessarily think I'm smarter than other people, but I am probably mentally quicker. I've come to believe this based on several experiences, one of which is that I consistently laugh well before the rest of the audience at a movie. Or maybe I'm just consistenly hanging out in 'slow' crowds.

3. In my mind's eye, I see myself as a bit of a loner. I always have been. It's been my tendency (good or bad) to have one best friend and lots of 'acquaintances'. For the last 15 years, my best friend has been my husband, and I like it that way.

4. I'm a bit of a worry wart, and I don't know why. I wish I could be more happy-go-lucky, but it's not really me.

5. I am a spiritual person. I don't agree that one can't be highly intelligent and also believe in God. The fact is that I'm smart enough to realize that all of this couldn't possibly be here by accident, and I don't understand people who don't get that.

6. When I was five years old, I found almost all the eggs at my kindergarten Easter egg hunt. My teacher then put me in the middle of the circle of children and proceeded to hand out my eggs to the other kids who didn't have any because they were too shy or unfocused to look for them. While I didn't mind the sharing aspect, it was at this point in my life that I knew I could never believe in Socialism. I had worked hard for those eggs, and now they were being taken from me and given to kids who had not. It was an early lesson in unfairness that I never forgot.

7. I believe that people get taller but they don't necessarily grow up. Especially men.

8. As a child, I played non-stop with dolls, Barbie dolls, dolls of every kind. But as an adult, I've never really had any interest in children. Never really wanted any, never felt I was missing something by not having them. I suppose I will regret that decision someday, or at least that's what they tell me. I'm still waiting for it to hit. Right now, the angst for children remains limited to major holidays, where it seems like it might be fun to be surrounded by a large family. Having that angst limited to 1 or 2 days a year hardly seems justification for the lifelong commitment of being a parent.

9. I've always been healthy, but for some reason, I don't think I will live a long life. Actually, I'm not sure I want to. Rather than overstay my visit here, I'd rather go early and leave 'em wanting more.

10. I don't value 'things'. I thought I did earlier in life; now I just see it all as clutter.

11. The best thing that ever happened to me is being born to my parents. The worst thing that ever happened to me is something I won't talk about here because I am still dealing with it and trying to get through it.

12. I found my first grey hair when I was 25. I promptly plucked it out and put it in an envelope and filed it away. I wanted to remember it. I don't know why; there have been plenty since then.

13. I probably look okay for my age. I've not put on weight (even since high school), and since I can keep the greys at bay with hair color, probably my worst aging issues so far are the lines gathering steam around my eyes. I'm not a big fan of plastic surgery, but I may have to break down and have that addressed someday (if that's possible). I'm really trying to hold out for someone to invent the miracle cream of creams to take care of that, instead. On the other hand, I may just blow it all off and grow old gracefully. After all, does it really matter?

14. I am often probably too polite. Some people just need to be brought down a notch, but I am rarely one to do that.

15. I'm not a jewelry girl. I never have been. Growing up, I had a best friend who collected charms for a charm bracelet. She would get a new charm for each birthday, at Christmas, at other giftings. She was always so excited about that, and I never understood why. I still don't. Jewelry is just expensive clutter. It's pretty to look at, but I don't really want it. Unless it's a canary diamond, and then I get chillbumps all over.

16. Growing up, I had an older sister who was fairly busty by the time she was 16. Following on, I couldn't wait for my boobs to come in. And I'm still waiting. They never showed up. :)

17. I don't have a good relationship with my sister or her daughter, but I have a good relationship with my brother and always have.

18. I hate my thighs.

19. I love traditional values in life and culture, but I prefer that other people maintain them and carry them out. That way, I don't have to and society is none the worse for it. It gives me all the freedom without the guilt. An example of this is having children -- I love it when someone has 3 or 4 -- that way, my not having any doesn't have an impact on society. It all evened out.

20. As a child, I always drew pictures of people with a single flower growing out of their head. I don't know why.

21. I can't sing at all. At church, I only mouth along to the words.

22. I used to constantly be late. One day, I turned that all around and am now never late. I don't know how that happened.

23. I love french fries, but I avoid them as often as possible. (see #18 above)

24. My religious upbringing does not teach reincarnation, but I can't help but think that might be a possibility. Would only seem fair to get more than one shot at it all. I also tend to think that there is only one God; some of us call him God, others Allah, still others Buddha. As a Christian, that's not really consistent with standard beliefs, but I wonder if God simply presented himself to different peoples in different ways because He knew we would all relate to him differently. A distinct possibility, I think.

25. I'm thankful for having lived a pretty good life so far.


SandDancer said...

6 - the link between this and socialism made me laugh, but I do feel sorry for the child version of you as it is most unfair. I actually quite like socialism as a concept, where everyone gets equal reward for equal work, but unfortunatately I don't think anyone has figured out a way of making it work in the real world.

8 - I have similar feelings to this. I worry that I will regret not having children, but still think it is probably better to regret that to regret having a child. Its a great taboo, but obviously it does happen.

16 - I'm still waiting too.

18 - does anyone like their thighs?

M said...

6 - The problem with many of the 'isms' (Socialism, Communism, sometimes even Capitalism) is that they ignore human nature. Works well in concept but not in execution. At least Capitalism recognizes some of that nature and uses it to its advantage -- greed, ambition, independence. It's not perfect but seems the most fair in terms of work/reward relationship, as evidenced by my egg gathering exercise. Had I thought they were just going to be given away, I probably wouldn't have worked so hard. *sigh* Clearly, I was already a greedy, ambitious, independent little bugger at age 5.

8 - I feel that I just can't worry about it. It's done. My mother talks about how much I've missed, and I tell her how much I would have missed if I'd had children -- I've seen a lot of the world and wouldn't have been able to with rugrats in tow.

16 - I don't care about this one anymore, thankfully.

18 - probably no one does like their own thighs but I sometimes like other peoples' there are some good ones out there ...just not mine.

SandDancer said...

That is exactly what I meant about socialism. It perhaps places too much hope on people's good nature and sadly not everyone can be trusted to do their fair share. I think that has been shown here with a percentage of the population who have no intention of ever working because they get housing and benefits without it. Where was the motivation for those children to look for the eggs next year if they knew that they would given some anyway at the end?

M said...

Agree. It's idealistic and ignores realities of life and humans. This is why I struggle with Obama's policies. While I like the idea of the first Black president and all that cultural goodness, his 'redistribution of wealth' mantra totally rubs me the wrong way, and I can't support it. Every time he says it, I think about my eggs.